Monday, November 07, 2005

The Blues.....


So, I've been fighting them for weeks now. The blues are lurking in my peripheral vision, threatening to come over for a visit. It happens three, maybe four times a year. Sometimes worse than others, always swept out of the door with me just getting up and doing stuff that has to be done. But when you are depressed you don't want to get up and do that stuff. It takes everything for me to get up and do a load of laundry. People who don't suffer from it don't/can't understand. It consumes you entirely. I always manage to function for the boys but that's all I'm doing. I'm not myself, I can't wait for alone time, I want to sleep or just sit in front of the T.V. Of course, I can only do those things when the boys are at school or napping or in bed for the night. I guess I don't have it as bad as some do. That's something to be thankful for. And, so far, this time I'm managing to not fall into the Abyss.

3 comments:

gnightgirl said...

Hold on tight.

This is mere commentary, not met for meddling advice. When the blues hit me hard, I make an effort to do at least one thing a day for myself, just so I can go to bed saying I have.

Sometimes that thing is nothing but riding it out. Sometimes it's painting my entire house for weeks.

Mad Dog said...

I know of what you speak. Sunshine. For me, it's all about the sun. Laying off the caffeine helps too, oddly. I think it's seasonal with me. Is it the same for you?

Mim said...

Funny, I hadn't thought about it. But, Yes I believe that around this time every year I get them. Hmmm, so is it the end of fall or the beginning of winter that gets me? Actually, exercise does wonders for me. I got on my eliptical this AM and can already tell a difference.