I took this picture a few nights ago in our garage. I'm still a little freaked by how it turned out.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Monday, November 21, 2005
My Girl.....
Isn't she lovely. She's supposed to be the boys dog and she is. But she's also mine. I'm the one who does the bulk of the caregiving. If I'm outside she's right there longing to lean up against me and get some scratching. I don't know what I'm going to do when she gets bigger. She's going to knock me over. It's kind of funny because I have never really liked large dogs. They always scared me. But I'm smitten with her.
Isn't she lovely. She's supposed to be the boys dog and she is. But she's also mine. I'm the one who does the bulk of the caregiving. If I'm outside she's right there longing to lean up against me and get some scratching. I don't know what I'm going to do when she gets bigger. She's going to knock me over. It's kind of funny because I have never really liked large dogs. They always scared me. But I'm smitten with her.Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Exercise.....
Oh, exercise, sweet exercise how I despise you. And yet you lift me up and help to make me whole again. Thirty minutes in the AM and it's like the winds of changed rushed in and blew the blues away. I had already decided to get on the elliptical and my dear Hubby asked, cautiously, are you going to go for a walk or anything today? He knows that exercise helps lift my mood. He knows that it's hard for me to fit it into my day. But he was brave and asked, some other time I might not have responded as well as I did today. It helped seal the deal so to speak. I knew I should and I did. Yay for me!
Oh, exercise, sweet exercise how I despise you. And yet you lift me up and help to make me whole again. Thirty minutes in the AM and it's like the winds of changed rushed in and blew the blues away. I had already decided to get on the elliptical and my dear Hubby asked, cautiously, are you going to go for a walk or anything today? He knows that exercise helps lift my mood. He knows that it's hard for me to fit it into my day. But he was brave and asked, some other time I might not have responded as well as I did today. It helped seal the deal so to speak. I knew I should and I did. Yay for me!
Monday, November 07, 2005
The Blues.....
So, I've been fighting them for weeks now. The blues are lurking in my peripheral vision, threatening to come over for a visit. It happens three, maybe four times a year. Sometimes worse than others, always swept out of the door with me just getting up and doing stuff that has to be done. But when you are depressed you don't want to get up and do that stuff. It takes everything for me to get up and do a load of laundry. People who don't suffer from it don't/can't understand. It consumes you entirely. I always manage to function for the boys but that's all I'm doing. I'm not myself, I can't wait for alone time, I want to sleep or just sit in front of the T.V. Of course, I can only do those things when the boys are at school or napping or in bed for the night. I guess I don't have it as bad as some do. That's something to be thankful for. And, so far, this time I'm managing to not fall into the Abyss.
So, I've been fighting them for weeks now. The blues are lurking in my peripheral vision, threatening to come over for a visit. It happens three, maybe four times a year. Sometimes worse than others, always swept out of the door with me just getting up and doing stuff that has to be done. But when you are depressed you don't want to get up and do that stuff. It takes everything for me to get up and do a load of laundry. People who don't suffer from it don't/can't understand. It consumes you entirely. I always manage to function for the boys but that's all I'm doing. I'm not myself, I can't wait for alone time, I want to sleep or just sit in front of the T.V. Of course, I can only do those things when the boys are at school or napping or in bed for the night. I guess I don't have it as bad as some do. That's something to be thankful for. And, so far, this time I'm managing to not fall into the Abyss.
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